aewynhaldrin

I really should be posting more from home... I think I need to. When there is no one around to listen to your rambles, it's nice to write a few lines here and there. Just had a small run-in with my partner at work. I whined a little about having my book cart messed up without noticing that she was the one doing the messing. Which led to her blowing up in my face, telling me I shouldn't be such a bitch about it. That actually made me quite angry, as I feel I didn't deserve that. Not from her, and certainly not about this. She's been doing this on and off since I started working with her a year ago, and it pisses me off because I rarely know what I'm doing wrong! Sometimes I bite my tongue a second or so too late, but other times... *shakes head*

I had a rough week, and still everybody seem to expect me to be all fun and cheery, and I just don't have the energy for that right now. I feel it's my right to be offended when people insult me, just as it is my right to shrug it off when I just don't care. Meh...

I had a tooth extracted on wednesday... An oddly painless experience, although I feel like a part of my body is missing. I know it was just a tooth, but it was a permanent tooth at the back of my mouth, right next to my invisible wisdom tooth, and I can feel it not being there. I am, after all, only 25 and should still have all my teeth, right? Maybe I'm just being silly... people have their arms and legs amputated because of stuff, but I still feel like I'm missing something. Odd... On the bright side, my dentist tells me that my wisdom tooth probably will get a boost now that it has room to surface, so I will get a new tooth there instead of the old, broken, dead one. Which is good. Very good.

Started a 3 credit course in rhetoric today. That means three weeks filled with the stuff. Not that I mind - not at all, because rhetoric is fun - but we have recieved a lot more work than we should have to be doing in three weeks. 5 assignments. I'm not kidding. Five. Two oral presentations, one advertisment and two written reports. In three weeks. Goodbye sleep, hello coffee. This should prove interesting, to say the least. I'm afraid I'll be hauled away by the nice men in white coats to spend the rest of my days at the loony bin if this keeps up much longer. I'm probably exaggerating like heck, but this is what my initial feelings on the matter is at the moment. It will probably get better as soon as I get some sleep and get started on assignment number one, but well... *shrugs*

Back to work. Until later!

Oddly enough, the only time I seem to update is on Mondays. I work on Mondays. Mondays are long-days, even though they are fun-days. Because I like my job, I really do. Sometimes, work seems to interfere with my social time, my free time, the time I would like to have at my own disposal. To go to the cinema, dance, have that extra jiu-jitsu training...

But Mondays are also the only days I work. Every Monday, I stand here behind the reception desk at my University Library. I like working with books. Books and people. Sometimes I am in absolute awe at how stupid people are. Let me illustrate:

Girl: Can I buy a book at the bookstore?
Me: Err... yes, since it is a book store, you can actually buy books there.
Girl: But what about when it's closed?
Me: Uhm...
Girl: Can I buy the book there anyway?
Me: Err... If it's closed, you can't get in there at all. Because it's closed.
Girl: Oh... I thought maybe you had a key or something...
Me: This is a library, and I am a university student... The book store and the library is not connected in any way, except when we go in there to buy books for the library.
Girl: Oh! Okay then...

I mean, honestly... How did these people get accepted at University if they are that dense? Incredible...

Well, here I am - University Library - the place where I seem to do most of my posting from. We've just moved the reception desk closer to where the books are, so everything is a bit new here now. I can't find a thing, and it feels funny not having the high limestone desk in front of you when you're working, but I guess that's something I just have to get used to. There are no books to work on tonight, except for the ones going back out on the shelves, and only one of us can leave the reception at a time, so nothing really for me to do down here.

I sent a letter today - first letter in about a year, which is kinda frightening when you think about it. Hundreds of years ago, people here in Sweden sent letters to each other all over the place, but now.... telephones, e-mail and the internet has almost done away with the fine art of actually writing and sending a letter to someone. I think that's sad, really. There is nothing more gratifying than getting a handwritten letter in your mailbox. Not to mention that it's a nice change from all the bills that usually end up there. The letter I sent was to a friend in England - James - who is visiting me the first two weeks of November. We've known each other through the internet for about eight years and started talking about this years ago. Britain and Sweden isn't really that far apart. That will be so much fun!!

Well, work is calling - time to actually do that which I am payed for!

This might seem pathetic to people who don't know me, but my oldest friend Kristina just phoned me at work and asked if I was available for dinner friday night - just her, her HUSBAND (they're newlyweds), me and a few other friends. I don't have that many friends, and it feels so great to know that the ones I have are there for good!

Tired... Today is my Grandma Karin's birthday, and she should have been 93 years old, had she lived. This might actually turn into a rant of sorts, considering I didn't like her very much. She was sneaky, overbearing and down right nasty and evil to both mum, dad and myself when I was little. It didn't really help that she lived in the house with us either. I think she managed to successfully get me to hate her guts with her antics. When she started getting senile dementia, she turned even more nasty. I know that was her illness, but it still made me feel bad. I do know that she loved me, but she had a hell of a funny way of showing it...

I should really get back to my books... avoiding to do any work is mainly what I do nowadays, and that is not good for my marks. My literature exam is on friday, so I definitely need to get cracking. There are some stuff I haven't read through yet :(

Your soul is bound to the Second Totem, Luna:
The Wolf.

Luna appears as a pair of coral colored wolves.
She embodies empathy, nurturing, insight,
and warmth. She is associated with the
color coral, the season of spring, and the
element of wind. Her downfall is pathos.

You are most compatible with Doves and Ravens.


Which Animal Spirit Totem Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Jaha, mitt första inlägg och det tänker jag göra på mitt modersmål, svenska. Konstigt egentligen hur mycket det betyder att använda sitt modersmål ibland... Det är inget man egentligen tänker på när man använder det varje dag i sitt vanliga svenssonliv, men det betyder faktiskt en hel del. Tänk om man varje dag tvingades att använda ett annat språk, även med dem man räknar till sin familj, människor som egentligen talar samma språk som jag. Massor av människor i världen lever i en sådan verklighet varje dag. De kallas invandrare och flyktingar, och infödingar som vi själva har inget som helst tålamod med att det tar länge, länge för somliga att lära sig det nya språket. Nog om detta.

I should probably switch to English now, as most people browsing around this place understands that language better than my Swedish...

Today has been remarkably uneventful. Just a few oddballs came in to the University library and wanted to copy stuff on the personel copying machine, refusing to pay and just wouldn't leave eventhough we closed five minutes ago. They just don't have a clue. They want us to be open as long as possible, but they haven't a single thought on that we, the students that work there, might have buses to catch or literature to read! One young woman got pissed at me because my computer behind the desk didn't accept USB-memories! It's not like I can help that! I also can't be held responsible for the fact that the IT-department chose this particular day for a server update, which means the student accounts will be offline until 8 pm this lovely evening! ARRRGHHH!!!!

Or maybe it's just me on too much caffeine.....
..
..
..
Nah....

I have a pile of books to read until Monday... that should prove interesting... August Strindberg is an author to recommend to people with insomnia, and he's the most important man in the Swedish history of literature. That says a lot about Swedish Literature... *rolls eyes*

Well, time to hit the books again, I guess.... *sighs*